2011 has been a year of many things; learning, loving, living, surviving...
I started the year out going back to work. God woke me up one morning and pushed me to the computer. I prayed to him, "I don't know what to do, so put me where you will allow me to grow and where it won't hurt as much to leave the kids." That is what he did. I worked for Drayer Physical Therapy for 10 months. During this time, Wayne had a couple of surgeries on his eye and some miraculous things happened: he could see 20/40.
Also, William was diagnosed with significant hearing loss. He, too, had surgery to correct this issue and God redeemed his hearing and speech. That day, as we sat outside watching the chickens, William asked me, "Mommy, do you hear that?" I didn't know what he could hear, so I asked him what he heard. He replied, "The wind." Tears began to well up in my eyes and I was so grateful to God for allowing him to hear again. We went for a walk that night and I pushed the stroller out of the gravel. William looked up at me and said roll on the gravel. I rolled the stroller back into the gravel and watch him look as if that was the coolest sound he had ever heard. It is amazing what we take for granite on a daily basis.
William had some mishaps, too. He fell out of the golf cart at my moms and was dragged down the driveway by his sister. Blessedly, he was very hurt and beat up with no internal injuries. A week before his ear surgery he slammed his thumb in my car door and almost chopped it off. That took almost a month to heal, but it did and the emergency room doctor said it was a miracle that it didn't sever his thumb! Thanks be to God.
Natalie and Anna had a tough year as well. They had to do a lot of growing up and being Mommy while daddy was recovering from his multiple surgeries. Now that I am home that are relaxing down a bit and learning to be BIG, but letting Mommy be Mommy.
Wayne was released to go back to work in the last week of September and then more challenges came. Here a man that has driven some type of Big truck since 1998, but no one would hire him. He had been out of a truck too long, they said. But God had a different plan. I know that going into work again would be hard for Wayne, especially after such a long time at home. I remember feeling that way when I stepped back into work early in the year. God provided him with a job at JB Hunt. Yes, after 3 weeks of driving other the road and not seeing us but one time, we begged God to redeem the time we had lost and that is what he did. He allowed Wayne to transfer to the local runs, which he was home 3 times a week. We thought we were set until all the work that he had put in wasn't enough to pay the little amount of bills that we had. Again, we begged God to help us know where to go next. I awoke from my sleep and asked Wayne if he couldn't contact the company where he was injured. They may have a dispatching position that he could do. Well two days later he was the new Operations Manager for over 100 trucks and in the work that he had done for two years prior. It is very demanding and hard at times, but we pray daily that God would continue to bless him and show him favor in his work.
As for me, well adjustments must be my middle name. When I went to work each day, I would cry and ask the Lord to comfort me while giving me success. I am not a name knower and this job, I had to know the patients name by the 2nd time they were there. So, as usual God did his thing and I usually knew them by first name before they left on the first visit. I grew very fast and learned things that people didn't learn until 6months to a year into the position. I give all that success to the Lord, because I gave it all to him each day. Learning to be a working mom was very hard and was such an adjustment. It took me at least 4 months and even then I would cry because I missed my homeschool friends and the life I had to leave. Now, I am back home with my family and serving my husband the way the Lord has asked me too. I have been here since October 8th, but again I am in a process of becoming normal again. What is normal? I wonder all the time. I am reading more of the truth, because the truth is what will set me free and is my only weapon against the one who wants to kill and destroy me. He wants me to feel anxiety when in crowds or when the thought of going to a meeting of some kind. He is targeting me with the things I have always loved to do: co-ops, field trips, eating out, and my physical body. I have always been a do-it-myself kind of girl. I mean I was a truck driver's wife, right. I struggle to sleep due to the pain in various parts of my body. The last time I went to the doctor, he said that my RA levels were elevated. RA is brought on by stress and major events in someone's life. I know that the Lord has called me to this place of service and I will not allow Satan to win the battle.
This year has had many trials, but I wouldn't trade them for anything. The pain levels are very high, but I know that God loves me. I know that he has a plan for me, one not to harm me, but to prosper me. I know that I will be success in Him. I pray everyday for healing, fruits of the spirit, direction in life, and favor from the Lord. He is my Almighty comforter, my Prince of Peace, my Healer, my Everything. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. As far as next year, I pray for the ability to write how much more he has done through us for others around us. We want to reach whoever God places in our lives.
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